Saturday, March 19, 2011

Baby in Heaven

As I am sitting here writing this, my heart is broken. Yesterday I just wasn't feeling right so we decided to go to the doctor and just make sure everything was ok. We found out through a sonogram that our little baby no longer had a heartbeat. We also found out that lil baby was not growing. 2 weeks ago, baby measured at 7 1/2 weeks and yesterday baby measures at 7 weeks and 6 days and it should have measured at 9 weeks.

We are just so sad. It doesn't make sense how 2 weeks ago our little baby could have such a strong heartbeat and now there isn't one. I have so many questions and am so frustrated. Why us?? I can't help but question what I did through out the last 2 weeks but our doctor reassured me that it was nothing I did and there is nothing wrong with me or with Brent. Sometimes these things just happen and we don't know why. I think it's God's way of protecting me and our baby. God knew something was not right and decided to take the baby to heaven. I know that we will get through this. I know we will have tough days that in time will turn into tough moments as we are reminded of our loss, but God will get us through all of it. It doesn't make it hurt any less but I know that we will be stronger in our relationship with one another because of it. This was all apart of God's amazing plan for our lives and how can we argue with that? He knew what he was doing and He knows what he will do in the future. We just have to trust Him.

So as for now, this pregnancy journey ends but we hope that in the near future we will be able to share some more good news. Thank you for all your support and prayers.

3 comments:

  1. That was such a nice post and God does have a plan...we can always count on that! I love you guys and am still praying for you! Miss you!

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  2. Laurie, I'm so so so sorry to hear about your loss. We have 2 angel babies in heaven as well, I can understand how deeply hurt and sad you both are. I am so sorry. :(

    Psalm 34:18
    The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

    Praying for strength and encouragement for you during this hard time.

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  3. Laurie & Brent, I am so sorry to read about the loss of your "little" one. When we don't understand the "whys" just go to the "who" - God alone knows and He will give you the strength and comfort you need at just the right time. I'm praying for you!

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